so i had a spring clean of my room..and somehow it still seems a mess, i have a pile of cloaths to either modify or mend piled ontop of my sewing machine, a scatter of unfinished paintings..includeing my huuge project for my best friend clare that ive not quite finished sketching onto canvas yet..im way to scared to start painting, its gotta be all epic and perfect or im gonna hate it whenever i go see her, people say that shell love it no matter what..but..ill know whats wrong with it.
a pile of read/unread graphic novels/manga from the library.. that i need to read fast or there gonna be late.
i wonder if my mum sujesting painting my room was a good idea..but then my posters make it look untidy anyway so it wouldnt make a difference,.
i realy want my own place where i can spread my stuff arround a bit and not have heaps of dvds and books and manga and figures and cloaths and allsorts in one room, my model collection would look much more epic in a liveing room or a hall space...not scattered over my books.

too much in my head about current boyfriends ex girlfriends and reletives and my situation at home and my mum and how i dont see her very often and she says shes going to call me but never does, she told me when me and my dad were doing my bedroom floor (its wooden now) that she thaught they would bicker and argue but they got on realy well, its just i dont actualy know if shes happy where she is now..i must get my cheerful dont show emotion from somewhere.

ok gone off on a random emotional tangent. bleerrrrgghghghgblergah

ok

my planted seeds are doing well morning glory and sweet pea flowers..i re potted them from the seed tray and they seem to fit on my window ledge better (i garden in my room cos the back yard is a cross between concreate and there being no fence to next dooors crazy yappy dog)

done for today
snoogens